My MaKeuP iS FieRcE... *snaps*

Originally PosTeD on MiiSpaciO
Tuesday, April 08, 2008


I had a serious case of writer’s block with this one...try as I may... I couldn’t articulate how I felt. Either way...I decided to share it with y’all. A friend & I got in2 an argument over a difference of opinion. (This makes the 2nd friend this week...) Our difference of opinion was of a personal matter, as usual, and as usual it ended up a war of words. Without getting into 2 much detail the issue at hand was running away from things. Which led 2 ’pot n kettle’ talk... which led to all sorts of shyt! Now when I say ’pot n kettle’ talk I mean the old verbiage of the pot calling the kettle black! Like u have issues how can you talk type shyt...LMFAOOOO! It is like a backward ass question! That would make me EXAACTLY the person to talk to!! Sure it is your job to assess my advice, decide whether it is the advice of sum1 who has learned from their mistakes or someone who hasn’t, but it is the advice of someone with experience. I mean..I’m not asking a virgin for advice on sex..now am I?
*FlaSHBaCk...2 AnoTha BaD DeCiSion*
The Year 2005, The place..well 4get the place, but I found myself hurt, torn, stressed out and basically just altogether ready to go! Where was I going, Who the fukk knows?? All I knew was I had 2 pick up and leave the life I was living. The life I had invested so much time in. A life I enjoyed. Why? Because this man had hurt me so badly I just felt the need to run! Run somewhere where I would not see him everyday. Oh the pain, the pain!I uprooted my life, my family, alientated friends (because the were telling me the truth about running), and basically set in motion a domino effect of new obstacles. In the end, it would have been easier to just stay around and avoid the nucca!
*BacK 2 Da FuTurePreSenT*
So now, Would it be okay, as a friend, to tell another friend that they don’t need to runaway from a life they worked hard 2 build over a love lost?? Of course, I could say ’here look, this was the mistake I made’ sheeiiitttt, I could even ask questions to make u think! Does it mean ur idea is bad? No! Just doing the same things my ’real’ friends did to me, make sure it knew wat it was I really wanted!
Is this to say my motives weren’t misaligned, sure maybe they were. Maybe I’m biased cuz as a friend, I don’t want to see you go. We spent last summer enbrawled in a mess of shyt n now we have the time to enjoy the warm, humid summers of ny together. Shop Canal st. for the lastest in bootleggable doodads n so forth.
Anyhow I say all of this to make this point.. I have been through a great deal of different things. Some good and some bad, but I share these incidents so that someone else could possibly learn from my mistakes. I do not hide them in an attempt to appear perfect. I have always been the one to wear my heart on my sleeve, and admit my flaw n faults. I do not try and use any make believe to pretend my life is perfect. That’s why I don’t become offended when those type of accusations are tossed around. I simply laugh and understand that people (inculding myself at times) do not like to be faced with truths that they are afraid of!In closing, as people with pride, we tend to use make-up to hide the things we don’t want people to see, or to trick people into believing something is, when it’s really not! As for myself, I make decisions that aren’t always in my best interest. I’m sure this will be something that never changes, But at the end of each day I am honest with the myself. People, Are you?So these days, when I pass the bitch at the mall who asks me about the make-up, I gladly pass her up n tell her I don’t need it. My NON make-up is fierce enough.

UnTiL NexT TiMe...ALL HooD, ALL the TiMe!!
Mucho Besos,
T.R. Riley