Originally PosTeD on MiiSpaCio
April 12, 2008
T.R. RiLeY,
I read the story about your friend and I am also in love with a man who doesn't belong to me. We had something once, but things didn't work out, and we went our seprate ways. I saw him again and now I can't keep him off my mind!! We speak regularly now, and he says things that lead me to think there is a possibilty for us to work something out. I tell him that I don't want to persue him (when I really do) until he is single. It is becoming harder to hide how I feel, especially since I want to know if his feelings are the same. Should I tell him the truth about how I feel, and hope he will do the same? Do you think telling him how I feel will persuade him that I am the better woman for him?
MiSS_GuyDeaD in Love
MiSS_GuYDeaD,
To paraphrase that crazy director guy that slept with his adopted daughter...we tend to romantcize our past. We take the good and make it better; and as for the bad, since the sting of the hurt has faded we tend to forget just how much it hurt while it was hurting!! Add love into the equation and you end up with a lot of confusion.
Yes my friend (she needs a name...suggestions?) is going through something similar. In fact, I spent a lot of time helping, a usually structured woman, keep herself composed both emotionally and mentally. She mirrored a lot of your questions and concerns.It's been a total of 3 days, and already she is questioning her relationship (which was fine as of monday, april 7th), and questioning the validity of his feelings, in addition to her own. She took a hit of that 'what if...' and hasn't been the same since!! I don't blame her; placed in her position I would probably feel the same way. She loves this man, his short comings and all. As I've explained in my previous blogging, temptations and 2nd chances, these 2 have an interesting history together. I also think that time has distorted her perception of what happened, and how badly she was hurt. Love doesn't have her completely blinded, she kind of sees the truth. She feels as though he doesn't have her best interest at heart, and the fact that he has a girl he is fully willing to disregard doesn't sit well with her either, but she is still asking 'what if...?' (as if she doesn't already know!) Then again, there are other things I can't share with y'all that contribute to her feelings for him!! (Read previous blogs...u may b able 2 read between the lines! Hint: Children) Would I suggest she tell him all of this...hell to the muthafukk'n no!! Why?...
Well 3 reasons...
1) I find it hard to believe he doesn't already know exactly how she feels. A man can look into a womans eyes and know if she is genuinly in love with him, or if she a skeezah.
2)Even if he thinks he knows, I wouldn't go so far as to confirm her feelings. That seems like too much power to give one person over your feelings. ESPECIALLY IF, you aren't sure of his intentions! And,
3) He has a girl! What else could he possibly offer than second best and leftovers.
Inevitably,in relationships, you will have to make all of these decisions on your own. You have to decide how much of yourself to surrender to your prospective partner. AGAIN, like I always say...assess assess assess, and then decide if the risks are worth the rewards. The surrender of your mind, heart, body and soul is the easy part...It's getting it all back that is the journey!As always. I hope the misguided adventures I share guide you through your adventures, and help you make better decisions for yourself!!
Until next time...
ALL HooD, ALL the time,
T.R. Riley
Rebel.riley@yahoo.com
Monday, April 14, 2008
RaNDoM ThouGHts oF a DruNKeN MiND!!
Originally PoSteD on MiiSpaCio
April 11, 2008
I don’t necessarily think I fiend to blog. I just think that I have too may random things on my mind and found an outlet. Something like right NOW, too many random things on my mind and this bottle of merlot is not making it any better. I thought when you started to drink the room was supposed to spin, not your thoughts!!! Guess I was wrong. *Stupid look*
In anycase, I have been noticing a lot lately and I have noticed a considerable increase in the number of men who think it is okay to wear tight jeans!!! Don’t get me wrong I’m all for the ‘fit but relaxed’ look. I love that some of these fine ass brothers got it together and stopped wearing their clothes 5 sizes to big. But can someone please tell me who the fuck told men they could wear skinny jeans
NEED I SAY MORE!!
I just don’t know anymore. Overheard on the boat today…boy telling girl, “I was so mad when I saw you with your man. He’s not for you; you need to be with me!” *straight face* If this weren’t font, there would be a pause right here, to indicate, that this comment has to marinate!! If he was the best he could come up with for a replacement than got damn, I would’ve hated to see her man...
Okay, now I don’t know how many of you will remember this but back in the day there was a candy called ‘cherry heads’, they were just like ‘lemon heads’ but cherry. Anywho, the candy was renamed and repackaged because its original packaging featured a trio of cherries that appeared to be oriental. I get why they changed the packaging, BUT WHYYY after they did that, did they have to go and change the taste??? * I tossed my box out the window* and if this is the trend, Do we really want them going and fucking with Aunt Jemima and Mrs. Butterworth?Okay, time for me to go and indulge in some temptations of my own; I have a BiG CiTY to explore tonight!!! Let’s hope I get whatever it is I’m looking for.
Besos, Riley
April 11, 2008
I don’t necessarily think I fiend to blog. I just think that I have too may random things on my mind and found an outlet. Something like right NOW, too many random things on my mind and this bottle of merlot is not making it any better. I thought when you started to drink the room was supposed to spin, not your thoughts!!! Guess I was wrong. *Stupid look*
In anycase, I have been noticing a lot lately and I have noticed a considerable increase in the number of men who think it is okay to wear tight jeans!!! Don’t get me wrong I’m all for the ‘fit but relaxed’ look. I love that some of these fine ass brothers got it together and stopped wearing their clothes 5 sizes to big. But can someone please tell me who the fuck told men they could wear skinny jeans
NEED I SAY MORE!!
I just don’t know anymore. Overheard on the boat today…boy telling girl, “I was so mad when I saw you with your man. He’s not for you; you need to be with me!” *straight face* If this weren’t font, there would be a pause right here, to indicate, that this comment has to marinate!! If he was the best he could come up with for a replacement than got damn, I would’ve hated to see her man...
Okay, now I don’t know how many of you will remember this but back in the day there was a candy called ‘cherry heads’, they were just like ‘lemon heads’ but cherry. Anywho, the candy was renamed and repackaged because its original packaging featured a trio of cherries that appeared to be oriental. I get why they changed the packaging, BUT WHYYY after they did that, did they have to go and change the taste??? * I tossed my box out the window* and if this is the trend, Do we really want them going and fucking with Aunt Jemima and Mrs. Butterworth?Okay, time for me to go and indulge in some temptations of my own; I have a BiG CiTY to explore tonight!!! Let’s hope I get whatever it is I’m looking for.
Besos, Riley
TeMPtaTioN and 2nD ChaNceS
Originally PosTed on MiiSpaciO
April 11 , 2008
I come to you today with one eye open and with my usual morning coffee with enough caffeine and sugar to get me through the remainder of my day. I knew I shouldn't have been sipping on that Bacardi last night, but the idea of a Peach Bacardi chased with Banana Strawberry juice was too much temptation to pass up. (Note: The consumption of alcohol is intended for those 21 years of age or older. Please drink responsibly. Also, if you are too drunk to walk you are too drunk to drive! And friends don't let friends drive drunk, especially since it's always the passengers who die and the drunken friend driving who lives!!!)
As I sipped this fruity concoction I knew the consequences of my actions. I knew that I would wake up in the morning with a headache, my eyes sensitive all bright lights (figures it would be 70 and sunny today), and unable to eat solid food for at least the next 24 hours, BUT the temptation was irresistible.
(I'm getting somewhere, trust me; in my world you know fact is always stranger than fiction.)
Temptation, the 10 letter word defined as the desire to do or have something you should avoid. In its very definition it is stated that it is something to be avoided, so what is it about temptation that makes it so damn seductive??
*This is the part where the picture gets hazy and we flashback to some unknown time in an unknown past. The past being more recent than we think*
A friend of mine went on a little rendezvous last night with someone from her past. There was talking and walking; there was catching up and maybe even catching feelings! This usually wouldn't be a problem except this particular relationship ended on a sour note. Maybe, SOUR, is not an effective word; let's just say that this *explicit* left my friend alone, baby on board and broken hearted! *EXPLICIT* Sorry folks! No happy ending here, there was no child, there was no reconciliation; the whole situation ended disastrously leaving her to pick up the pieces by herself.
* Back to something like the present*
Now, as I watch her flirt with danger once again, I wonder what compels her. What is the temptation that would make her take the risks she is taking? If her man found out he would certainly commit some random act of violence, and needless to say it would be the end of their relationship. In the meantime, I highly doubt her ex-whatevauwanacallhim is in it for the long haul…or is he? (You know me folks I'm a skeptic…I think he has ulterior motives!) Is it the temptation of what if…? You know the… if we…and what if you… and what if I…? Are a few stolen moments worth the consequences? Even if her boyfriend never finds out about their secret rendezvous (she is sure to have more…watch!), will she be able to handle what may turn out to be another disappointment and the opening of an old wound that didn't heal properly the first time? Is the temptation strong enough to have her risk emotional fallout of nucleic proportions? I mean I'm all for forgiveness and all, and giving people second chances, but when is a second chance one too many?
Why take the risk, if you don't know what you have to gain?My final thoughts… I've made many irrational decisions blinded merely by uncontrollable emotions; being both sadist and masochist, torturing myself by repeating inevitable heartbreak. It was usually me wanting to see the good qualities that had long been tarnished by life's realities. Even after listing the pros and cons (the con's usually won), I still chose to ignore the writing on the wall and precede, head-first, into disaster. It makes me wonder if the surrender to temptation is just simply human nature!!Meanwhile, I'm sure my friend will continue to take every opportunity she can to reacquaint herself with the one man who lays claim to a very special place in her heart. After all, the opportunity to finally lay claim to his heart is far more temptation than she can withstand!!!
You know what to do next….
ALL HooD, ALL the time.
Mucho Besos,
T.R. Riley
Rebel.riley@yahoo.com
April 11 , 2008
I come to you today with one eye open and with my usual morning coffee with enough caffeine and sugar to get me through the remainder of my day. I knew I shouldn't have been sipping on that Bacardi last night, but the idea of a Peach Bacardi chased with Banana Strawberry juice was too much temptation to pass up. (Note: The consumption of alcohol is intended for those 21 years of age or older. Please drink responsibly. Also, if you are too drunk to walk you are too drunk to drive! And friends don't let friends drive drunk, especially since it's always the passengers who die and the drunken friend driving who lives!!!)
As I sipped this fruity concoction I knew the consequences of my actions. I knew that I would wake up in the morning with a headache, my eyes sensitive all bright lights (figures it would be 70 and sunny today), and unable to eat solid food for at least the next 24 hours, BUT the temptation was irresistible.
(I'm getting somewhere, trust me; in my world you know fact is always stranger than fiction.)
Temptation, the 10 letter word defined as the desire to do or have something you should avoid. In its very definition it is stated that it is something to be avoided, so what is it about temptation that makes it so damn seductive??
*This is the part where the picture gets hazy and we flashback to some unknown time in an unknown past. The past being more recent than we think*
A friend of mine went on a little rendezvous last night with someone from her past. There was talking and walking; there was catching up and maybe even catching feelings! This usually wouldn't be a problem except this particular relationship ended on a sour note. Maybe, SOUR, is not an effective word; let's just say that this *explicit* left my friend alone, baby on board and broken hearted! *EXPLICIT* Sorry folks! No happy ending here, there was no child, there was no reconciliation; the whole situation ended disastrously leaving her to pick up the pieces by herself.
* Back to something like the present*
Now, as I watch her flirt with danger once again, I wonder what compels her. What is the temptation that would make her take the risks she is taking? If her man found out he would certainly commit some random act of violence, and needless to say it would be the end of their relationship. In the meantime, I highly doubt her ex-whatevauwanacallhim is in it for the long haul…or is he? (You know me folks I'm a skeptic…I think he has ulterior motives!) Is it the temptation of what if…? You know the… if we…and what if you… and what if I…? Are a few stolen moments worth the consequences? Even if her boyfriend never finds out about their secret rendezvous (she is sure to have more…watch!), will she be able to handle what may turn out to be another disappointment and the opening of an old wound that didn't heal properly the first time? Is the temptation strong enough to have her risk emotional fallout of nucleic proportions? I mean I'm all for forgiveness and all, and giving people second chances, but when is a second chance one too many?
Why take the risk, if you don't know what you have to gain?My final thoughts… I've made many irrational decisions blinded merely by uncontrollable emotions; being both sadist and masochist, torturing myself by repeating inevitable heartbreak. It was usually me wanting to see the good qualities that had long been tarnished by life's realities. Even after listing the pros and cons (the con's usually won), I still chose to ignore the writing on the wall and precede, head-first, into disaster. It makes me wonder if the surrender to temptation is just simply human nature!!Meanwhile, I'm sure my friend will continue to take every opportunity she can to reacquaint herself with the one man who lays claim to a very special place in her heart. After all, the opportunity to finally lay claim to his heart is far more temptation than she can withstand!!!
You know what to do next….
ALL HooD, ALL the time.
Mucho Besos,
T.R. Riley
Rebel.riley@yahoo.com
My MaKeuP iS FieRcE... *snaps*
Originally PosTeD on MiiSpaciO
Tuesday, April 08, 2008
I had a serious case of writer’s block with this one...try as I may... I couldn’t articulate how I felt. Either way...I decided to share it with y’all. A friend & I got in2 an argument over a difference of opinion. (This makes the 2nd friend this week...) Our difference of opinion was of a personal matter, as usual, and as usual it ended up a war of words. Without getting into 2 much detail the issue at hand was running away from things. Which led 2 ’pot n kettle’ talk... which led to all sorts of shyt! Now when I say ’pot n kettle’ talk I mean the old verbiage of the pot calling the kettle black! Like u have issues how can you talk type shyt...LMFAOOOO! It is like a backward ass question! That would make me EXAACTLY the person to talk to!! Sure it is your job to assess my advice, decide whether it is the advice of sum1 who has learned from their mistakes or someone who hasn’t, but it is the advice of someone with experience. I mean..I’m not asking a virgin for advice on sex..now am I?
*FlaSHBaCk...2 AnoTha BaD DeCiSion*
The Year 2005, The place..well 4get the place, but I found myself hurt, torn, stressed out and basically just altogether ready to go! Where was I going, Who the fukk knows?? All I knew was I had 2 pick up and leave the life I was living. The life I had invested so much time in. A life I enjoyed. Why? Because this man had hurt me so badly I just felt the need to run! Run somewhere where I would not see him everyday. Oh the pain, the pain!I uprooted my life, my family, alientated friends (because the were telling me the truth about running), and basically set in motion a domino effect of new obstacles. In the end, it would have been easier to just stay around and avoid the nucca!
*BacK 2 Da FuTurePreSenT*
So now, Would it be okay, as a friend, to tell another friend that they don’t need to runaway from a life they worked hard 2 build over a love lost?? Of course, I could say ’here look, this was the mistake I made’ sheeiiitttt, I could even ask questions to make u think! Does it mean ur idea is bad? No! Just doing the same things my ’real’ friends did to me, make sure it knew wat it was I really wanted!
Is this to say my motives weren’t misaligned, sure maybe they were. Maybe I’m biased cuz as a friend, I don’t want to see you go. We spent last summer enbrawled in a mess of shyt n now we have the time to enjoy the warm, humid summers of ny together. Shop Canal st. for the lastest in bootleggable doodads n so forth.
Anyhow I say all of this to make this point.. I have been through a great deal of different things. Some good and some bad, but I share these incidents so that someone else could possibly learn from my mistakes. I do not hide them in an attempt to appear perfect. I have always been the one to wear my heart on my sleeve, and admit my flaw n faults. I do not try and use any make believe to pretend my life is perfect. That’s why I don’t become offended when those type of accusations are tossed around. I simply laugh and understand that people (inculding myself at times) do not like to be faced with truths that they are afraid of!In closing, as people with pride, we tend to use make-up to hide the things we don’t want people to see, or to trick people into believing something is, when it’s really not! As for myself, I make decisions that aren’t always in my best interest. I’m sure this will be something that never changes, But at the end of each day I am honest with the myself. People, Are you?So these days, when I pass the bitch at the mall who asks me about the make-up, I gladly pass her up n tell her I don’t need it. My NON make-up is fierce enough.
UnTiL NexT TiMe...ALL HooD, ALL the TiMe!!
Mucho Besos,
T.R. Riley
Tuesday, April 08, 2008
I had a serious case of writer’s block with this one...try as I may... I couldn’t articulate how I felt. Either way...I decided to share it with y’all. A friend & I got in2 an argument over a difference of opinion. (This makes the 2nd friend this week...) Our difference of opinion was of a personal matter, as usual, and as usual it ended up a war of words. Without getting into 2 much detail the issue at hand was running away from things. Which led 2 ’pot n kettle’ talk... which led to all sorts of shyt! Now when I say ’pot n kettle’ talk I mean the old verbiage of the pot calling the kettle black! Like u have issues how can you talk type shyt...LMFAOOOO! It is like a backward ass question! That would make me EXAACTLY the person to talk to!! Sure it is your job to assess my advice, decide whether it is the advice of sum1 who has learned from their mistakes or someone who hasn’t, but it is the advice of someone with experience. I mean..I’m not asking a virgin for advice on sex..now am I?
*FlaSHBaCk...2 AnoTha BaD DeCiSion*
The Year 2005, The place..well 4get the place, but I found myself hurt, torn, stressed out and basically just altogether ready to go! Where was I going, Who the fukk knows?? All I knew was I had 2 pick up and leave the life I was living. The life I had invested so much time in. A life I enjoyed. Why? Because this man had hurt me so badly I just felt the need to run! Run somewhere where I would not see him everyday. Oh the pain, the pain!I uprooted my life, my family, alientated friends (because the were telling me the truth about running), and basically set in motion a domino effect of new obstacles. In the end, it would have been easier to just stay around and avoid the nucca!
*BacK 2 Da FuTurePreSenT*
So now, Would it be okay, as a friend, to tell another friend that they don’t need to runaway from a life they worked hard 2 build over a love lost?? Of course, I could say ’here look, this was the mistake I made’ sheeiiitttt, I could even ask questions to make u think! Does it mean ur idea is bad? No! Just doing the same things my ’real’ friends did to me, make sure it knew wat it was I really wanted!
Is this to say my motives weren’t misaligned, sure maybe they were. Maybe I’m biased cuz as a friend, I don’t want to see you go. We spent last summer enbrawled in a mess of shyt n now we have the time to enjoy the warm, humid summers of ny together. Shop Canal st. for the lastest in bootleggable doodads n so forth.
Anyhow I say all of this to make this point.. I have been through a great deal of different things. Some good and some bad, but I share these incidents so that someone else could possibly learn from my mistakes. I do not hide them in an attempt to appear perfect. I have always been the one to wear my heart on my sleeve, and admit my flaw n faults. I do not try and use any make believe to pretend my life is perfect. That’s why I don’t become offended when those type of accusations are tossed around. I simply laugh and understand that people (inculding myself at times) do not like to be faced with truths that they are afraid of!In closing, as people with pride, we tend to use make-up to hide the things we don’t want people to see, or to trick people into believing something is, when it’s really not! As for myself, I make decisions that aren’t always in my best interest. I’m sure this will be something that never changes, But at the end of each day I am honest with the myself. People, Are you?So these days, when I pass the bitch at the mall who asks me about the make-up, I gladly pass her up n tell her I don’t need it. My NON make-up is fierce enough.
UnTiL NexT TiMe...ALL HooD, ALL the TiMe!!
Mucho Besos,
T.R. Riley
FaiTH iN LoVe
Originally Posted on MiiSpaciO
Friday, April 04, 2008
Ryin,
I used to read ur blogs a lot, and you seem like ur a beautiful woman who seems to get her heart broken a lot. I admire that you never bash the ni&%az that you dealt with! How do always manage to look forward to love again?
Ri©HBoY_757
Ri©H,
Can I call u Ri©H? Cool!
This question seemed like an easy one at first. I was going to give you the whole speech about how you don’t let the past affect your future…blah blah blah... New man should not be treated this way because…blah blah blah…! So instead I’m going to give you the upfront answer… I made a lot of mistakes and made bad decisions!!! I can’t blame dudes for that, they can only be who they are, as I can only be who I am.
In all honesty when I dealt with some of the individuals that I have I knew that it wouldn’t work. I knew that our ideas about relationships differed, meaning, I was in it for the long run and they were there for the moment! Also, it was evident that our lives were going in different directions. I always went after stereotypical "bad boy", you know the love ’em and leave ’em type of guy. I just always thought I could change them!!! I saw the good and innocent qualities that they could no longer see in themselves, and I always thought I could change them, and save them from their own demise. (Ladies take note: The only time you can change a man is if he is in pampers!)
Example, I fell head over heels with a young man who I simply could shake..lol! He was handsome, mysterious, and I wanted him. Except that he had no real ambitions and was content to be living an unstable life and living that street life. While he was diving head first into a life that eventually trap him and kill him slow, I was running as far and fast as I could away from it. We were from the same world, but we saw it in two different ways. He saw no hope for the future, and had given up, and me… well I wasn’t going to let the hood eat me alive, and wasn’t giving up without a fight. I just knew if I fought hard enough I could save us both. In the end he wasn’t mature enough to handle our relationship, and left me alone in love. (Good thing I never told him I loved him, huh?)
However, I soon came to realize that the only person that I was fooling was myself, and if I continued to make the choices I was making that I would bring myself down in the process. I learned a lot from my mistakes. I learned about what I wanted and didn’t want. I learned to read the writing on the wall and be a "down ass bitch" to the most important person in my life, ME! This doesn’t mean that I wasn’t resentful at some point, of course I was, BUT once I took the time away to love myself, I was alble to trust myself and my judgment. It made it easier to love and TRUST again!
Hope that answers that ( I aint think I had that much to say about it, lol!)
As always, until next time...
ALL HooD, ALL the time, Mucho Besos!
T.R. Riley
Friday, April 04, 2008
Ryin,
I used to read ur blogs a lot, and you seem like ur a beautiful woman who seems to get her heart broken a lot. I admire that you never bash the ni&%az that you dealt with! How do always manage to look forward to love again?
Ri©HBoY_757
Ri©H,
Can I call u Ri©H? Cool!
This question seemed like an easy one at first. I was going to give you the whole speech about how you don’t let the past affect your future…blah blah blah... New man should not be treated this way because…blah blah blah…! So instead I’m going to give you the upfront answer… I made a lot of mistakes and made bad decisions!!! I can’t blame dudes for that, they can only be who they are, as I can only be who I am.
In all honesty when I dealt with some of the individuals that I have I knew that it wouldn’t work. I knew that our ideas about relationships differed, meaning, I was in it for the long run and they were there for the moment! Also, it was evident that our lives were going in different directions. I always went after stereotypical "bad boy", you know the love ’em and leave ’em type of guy. I just always thought I could change them!!! I saw the good and innocent qualities that they could no longer see in themselves, and I always thought I could change them, and save them from their own demise. (Ladies take note: The only time you can change a man is if he is in pampers!)
Example, I fell head over heels with a young man who I simply could shake..lol! He was handsome, mysterious, and I wanted him. Except that he had no real ambitions and was content to be living an unstable life and living that street life. While he was diving head first into a life that eventually trap him and kill him slow, I was running as far and fast as I could away from it. We were from the same world, but we saw it in two different ways. He saw no hope for the future, and had given up, and me… well I wasn’t going to let the hood eat me alive, and wasn’t giving up without a fight. I just knew if I fought hard enough I could save us both. In the end he wasn’t mature enough to handle our relationship, and left me alone in love. (Good thing I never told him I loved him, huh?)
However, I soon came to realize that the only person that I was fooling was myself, and if I continued to make the choices I was making that I would bring myself down in the process. I learned a lot from my mistakes. I learned about what I wanted and didn’t want. I learned to read the writing on the wall and be a "down ass bitch" to the most important person in my life, ME! This doesn’t mean that I wasn’t resentful at some point, of course I was, BUT once I took the time away to love myself, I was alble to trust myself and my judgment. It made it easier to love and TRUST again!
Hope that answers that ( I aint think I had that much to say about it, lol!)
As always, until next time...
ALL HooD, ALL the time, Mucho Besos!
T.R. Riley
LoVe and LiFe
Originally Posted on MiiSpaciO...
April 4, 2008
I got a lil’ note in my inbox today, and it isn’t the first of its kind. In fact, I used to get alot of these until I basically took the time away from life to heal myself. In anycase for what it is worth I decided to start answering some of these notes, here, in my blog. I figured sharing these things with all of you could help someone else with similar issues and problems. Maybe give some clarity, or just make for a good read! for whatever it is worth, to those of you out there in cyberspace who e-mail me and ’note’ me for advice, i appreciate it.
It’s a wonderful feeling to have someone feel as though my wisdom and life experiences may help them live and be in love with themselves. It is a blessing to say the least. I have endured many obstacles,and I endured many heart breaks, and I guess my agony can be someone else’s salvation.
Okay, so enough about all of that!!! Basically, keep all of your letters, e-mails, notes, and whatever flowing!! Of course you can leave a note here, or e-mail me at rebel.riley@yahoo.com.
I promise u, everything is personal, everything is confidential. The best kept secret is the ones I kno
Until next time.
All HooD, All the Time.Mucho Besos!
T.R. Riley
April 4, 2008
I got a lil’ note in my inbox today, and it isn’t the first of its kind. In fact, I used to get alot of these until I basically took the time away from life to heal myself. In anycase for what it is worth I decided to start answering some of these notes, here, in my blog. I figured sharing these things with all of you could help someone else with similar issues and problems. Maybe give some clarity, or just make for a good read! for whatever it is worth, to those of you out there in cyberspace who e-mail me and ’note’ me for advice, i appreciate it.
It’s a wonderful feeling to have someone feel as though my wisdom and life experiences may help them live and be in love with themselves. It is a blessing to say the least. I have endured many obstacles,and I endured many heart breaks, and I guess my agony can be someone else’s salvation.
Okay, so enough about all of that!!! Basically, keep all of your letters, e-mails, notes, and whatever flowing!! Of course you can leave a note here, or e-mail me at rebel.riley@yahoo.com.
I promise u, everything is personal, everything is confidential. The best kept secret is the ones I kno
Until next time.
All HooD, All the Time.Mucho Besos!
T.R. Riley
Bakk LooKin Like.. U GueSSeD iT..ME!!!
Originally PoSTeD on MiiSpaCio...
Thursday, April 03, 2008
Damn its been awhile since I did this myspace thing... sheesh! Well I just wanted to let some of u kno ... that yes, I am back. Me and the Divafied Team of angels are working on some new projects for this upcoming year! SHHHHHHH! I can’t let yall all know what yet, but look for it soon.
I am 4 months and 3days late, but it is time for my beginning of the year msg.
I will keep it short jazzy n sassy for u (like me)
I did alot of reflecting after 2005, that summer was crazy! I was in and out of chaos. Some of it my own, some due to others, in anycase what really matters is that I rose from the ashes that the devils thought they trapped me in... hahaha. However, It was not without struggle, and for those of you who were there with me throughout I will never forget that!!!
Nothing about me has changed... I am still the same HooDGirL You have all come to know and love (and sometimes hate) but for the most part you know that once I have love for you it will remain that way. As for those who tried to take me under and over...( well they arent on my friends list r they.. so they dont need ot be addressed.) I am STILL the TeFLoNN DiVa!! Untouchable, Uncontrollable, and most definately, undeniably, well, ME!
There’s so much I wish I could share right now, but I have to keep certain things under wraps cuz its a surprise, and the rest just won’t fit into one damn blog...lol!
But b4 I close I would like to say this... There is one person who I would like to thank (won’t mention his name cuz he shuld know who he is and I dont really wana put him on blast.. yet! (Yall gona have to read my book for the details) ... but thank you! You were too stupid to realize how I truly felt about you until it was too late, and although u apologized long ago, I wasnt ready to accept that. I did realize though that was not the one who needed to be bitter becuz I didn’t miss out on much. On the other hand, you, you missed out on a great deal that onli comes along once in a lifetime for people like us. There are no hard feelings,and there is still a soft spot in my heart for you. I just know better. So M.B., your apology is accepted (my bad its 2 yrs l8)!!!
I used way to many letters in that last statement, but forgiveness is apart of moving on in life, and growing as a person. The upcoming year will hopefully bring fruition to many things I have had in the works for some time now. I hope that all of you, my friends, will continue to be as supportive and important to me as you have been. I love u all in my own little way....
All Hood, All the Time...Besos
Terrena Ryin Riley
Thursday, April 03, 2008
Damn its been awhile since I did this myspace thing... sheesh! Well I just wanted to let some of u kno ... that yes, I am back. Me and the Divafied Team of angels are working on some new projects for this upcoming year! SHHHHHHH! I can’t let yall all know what yet, but look for it soon.
I am 4 months and 3days late, but it is time for my beginning of the year msg.
I will keep it short jazzy n sassy for u (like me)
I did alot of reflecting after 2005, that summer was crazy! I was in and out of chaos. Some of it my own, some due to others, in anycase what really matters is that I rose from the ashes that the devils thought they trapped me in... hahaha. However, It was not without struggle, and for those of you who were there with me throughout I will never forget that!!!
Nothing about me has changed... I am still the same HooDGirL You have all come to know and love (and sometimes hate) but for the most part you know that once I have love for you it will remain that way. As for those who tried to take me under and over...( well they arent on my friends list r they.. so they dont need ot be addressed.) I am STILL the TeFLoNN DiVa!! Untouchable, Uncontrollable, and most definately, undeniably, well, ME!
There’s so much I wish I could share right now, but I have to keep certain things under wraps cuz its a surprise, and the rest just won’t fit into one damn blog...lol!
But b4 I close I would like to say this... There is one person who I would like to thank (won’t mention his name cuz he shuld know who he is and I dont really wana put him on blast.. yet! (Yall gona have to read my book for the details) ... but thank you! You were too stupid to realize how I truly felt about you until it was too late, and although u apologized long ago, I wasnt ready to accept that. I did realize though that was not the one who needed to be bitter becuz I didn’t miss out on much. On the other hand, you, you missed out on a great deal that onli comes along once in a lifetime for people like us. There are no hard feelings,and there is still a soft spot in my heart for you. I just know better. So M.B., your apology is accepted (my bad its 2 yrs l8)!!!
I used way to many letters in that last statement, but forgiveness is apart of moving on in life, and growing as a person. The upcoming year will hopefully bring fruition to many things I have had in the works for some time now. I hope that all of you, my friends, will continue to be as supportive and important to me as you have been. I love u all in my own little way....
All Hood, All the Time...Besos
Terrena Ryin Riley
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